“Sometimes the storm of life can literally brings us to our knees. Child Pose gives us the opportunity for spiritual surrender, to realize that ‘of myself, I can do nothing, but there is a power in me that can.’ We spend our whole lives resisting the idea of surrender, we see it as a weakness, as giving up. Then suddenly we hit a point where we realize that the moment of “letting go” is not when life is over, it is when life really begins…”
The quote above is given to all the BB instructors during our release 45 tuition…a great sharing from our head teacher. I don’t remember the source or origin of the quote… I am simply touch by the feeling behind every word.
It has come to a point for me…instead of fighting on to hold on permanent class…where I struggle in achieving what I wish in the class, but sometime fail to deliver due to the tiredness of the day… it is better for me to let it go. Some people think that I am over critical to self. Yet, it does take me a while to get over it every time it happened. Cheating and tolerating with sub standard is not my option. So, I knew the end is coming.
It was a quiet month (cum busy month)…the load of my work has driven me up to my neck like everyone else. Looking at the rate, I knew I need to be prepared for the closure, and I am right.
It is hard for me to initiate the closure although I am so burn-out, because the thought of unable to teach has truly saddened me. So, when it finally happened, part of me… I am glad…relief that I can retrieve my responsibility for some rest. The other part of me…feeling sad, because I know letting go of this commitment might also lead to a complete closure of this chapter…I know, the season coming to an end.
It was just a short 2 years…a wonderful journey I treasure. So much hard work, a group of people burning with the same passion and the will to do better each time…for the moment of fitness magic, is truly encouraging. It is about self discipline, the determination to work on, lots of practice, the excitement of each release and the love for those who enjoy the journey in the class…is such a joy to be teaching…truly.
I can’t foresee where will I be heading…if I would take on one or two from time to time…or a complete stop due to my overwhelming schedule, I am not sure yet…Whichever it is, I truly wish, those who is with me for the past 2 years, will continue their journey, enjoying this beautiful program in the days to come.
Then suddenly we hit a point where we realize that the moment of “letting go” is not when life is over, it is when life really begins…”
A Stream of Moonlight 