A lovely song by Allison Moorer

Its been a long dark night
And Ive been a waitin for the morning
Its been a long hard fight
But I see a brand new day a dawning
Ive been looking for the sunshine
Cause I aint seen it in so long
But everythings gonna work out just fine
Everythings gonna be all right
That’s been all wrong

Cause I can see the light of a clear blue morning
I can see the light of a brand new day
I can see the light of a clear blue morning
And everythings gonna be all right
Its gonna be okay

Its been a long long time
Since Ive known the taste of freedom
And those clinging vines
That had me bound, well I don’t need em

Cause I am strong and I can prove it
And I got my dreams to see me through
Its just a mountain, I can move it
And with faith enough there’s nothing I can’t do

And I can see the light of a clear blue morning
And I can see the light of brand new day
I can see the light of a clear blue morning
And everythings gonna be all right
Its gonna be okay

I can see the light of a clear blue morning
I can see the light of a brand new day
Yes I can see the light of a clear blue morning
And everythings gonna be all right
Everythings gonna be all right
Everythings gonna be all right

Its gonna be okay

Cause I can see the light of a clear blue morning
I can see the light of a clear blue morning
Yes I can see the light of a clear blue morning
Everythings gonna be all right
Its gonna be okay

I can see the light
I can see the light

Its gonna be all right
Its gonna be all right

I am finally home with my lil girl…finally…

First come first…the flower for my lil girl room…the 3D tree in the previous post? It have to be this! I will make it with various of love colour fabric…awwww, so sweet!

Then…there are more variety I will make it on my lil girl shirt, sweater, jacket, dress, headband, hat, shoes like these…

On the pillow like this…sure to make my Blueprint girl go…wooo woooo woooooooo!

Do you need more? I am so overwhelm! All these, thanks for the sharing by Jones Design Company.

Oh…last but not least…I will do these ornament flower too. However, I will modify it a little using recycle paper cup/ cover instead of the material suggested. Well, I believe it will be as adorable as these. Check out Stephanie Lynn in Under the table dreaming tutorial too. Oh, so creative!

Well, I got nervous after been told I have been too simple with my diet and whatever I took will reflect on my baby. Then, I began to wonder…is it really that bad? I will certainly agree I don’t have anything luxury…but simple food is the basic need compare with fancy food isn’t it? (trying to convince myself that I ate enough)

Still, I couldn’t help it… I took extra effort in making myself some herbal chicken soup, additional cup of orange carrot juice and told myself…this is good for baby. At least…it is something, even is just 2 days…every effort count. I like to believe so. And, I make up my mind, this will be the first and the last. Never will I put my hope on someone else to provide for me (and my lit one). Lesson learned.

Lastly…lots of prayer…begging God to bless my child. This is the lit sad part of my day.

Then, I need to turn and switch on my happiness…and I began browsing for ideas…of course, for my lit girl. Here’s what I like and I will change my plan again to this one (oh well, I get to keep changing until I get to step my foot back to my own home).

Isn’t tis sweet? Indeed, my lit girl deserve a pretty room with blossom. What a joy!

Check out this wonderful lady who share all things about children and baby design…it is so inspiring!

As the result…I became an watch night owl! ^_~ Maybe, this is good practice for the incoming. I won’t overslept and ignore her needs. Then, when the day finally dawn…I decided to give up sleeping and just browse some blogs from talented blogger…and guess what I found?

Awwwww!!!! So adorable! I start to believe I am going to be SOOOO busy! Busy sewing, cooking, making things…I beg God for extra time. I need all my 24 hours to work on things…maybe another 6 hours please…I beg, to have some nap. ^_~

Btw, I found this owl from her! She don’t make them…but she share awesome recipe which is simple and tasty!

JP and I were counting down…5, 4, 3, 2, 1….and our little one will arrive! I believe it with faith in my heart that He’s taking control of all things and all will be going so well. Praise the Lord who love me. Amen!

Suddenly I wish can I create some blossom for my lit girl…something sweet and adorable like her. I wish I wish I wish I can do many many things for her….when I think of her sweet face, cute smile, lit toe and lit finger. It make me smile. JP is anxious. He has been anxious since Nov…and getting more and more…ANXIOUS! but…filled with JOY! for our INCOMING!

Then…I am thinking of my journey here will come to completion soon after her arrival…and I saw lots of lots of wreath. I don’t know what is the purpose wreath in other part of the world, but for me…a wreath symbolise completion. I am thinking of making many wreath for different occasion. I am so going to invest time in making them for my own…hanging along the 3 panel of window at my kitchen, and many to give away as love gifts.

Something like this…

Don’t you think all these wreath looked awesomely charming? Oh, I so wish I can work on them immediately…All is from her! Oh, I am so inspired reading her blog and all her DIY is like…why didn’t I know this earlier? I am so gonna follow her for so a while…what a joy!

11/11/11 however, also a very scary number if you read the verses in the bible…majority of it is about the judgement day of mankind. I received a phone call yesterday, earnestly requested me to pray alongside for this special day. Praying for God mercy and love…in His wrath, please remember mercy . I cling on His grace and promise…to never leave us nor forsake us. It is a believe I hold on closely to my heart. I spend the whole night…almost not sleeping, praying for everyone that is dear to me…my lit girl, my dearest JP,  both side of my family, my cell, my church, my friends to everyone in the world. It was such a long long list. So, by dawn…I am exhausted.

Still, remember a song by Don Moen…even the sun don’t shine, the field is dry…I will still worship Him. His love endure forever. All His act and decision is beyond our lit mind can fantom. I trusted all His act is out of His gracious love for us. Will you agree with me?

And lastly…here’s a new design of invitation card I designed which like to share with you on this special day…titled Union of Love. The design is based on the 60s graphic concept. Would you consider going with the 60s theme for your wedding, and use this card  as your wedding invitation?

I would…but maybe for my anniversary with JP. ^_~ It will be so sweet!

I don’t like it nor hate it. But, I definitely do not like to see it lingering around me…live or death. I believe, most of us felt the same unless you have special interest in observing/ keeping it as your pets. It is a harmless insect (not fire ant of course, but those typically lingering at home specially the kitchen).

The saddest part is…I have it lingering around me almost in every part of the house, from the kitchen, the washroom, and on the wall beside my bed. I could barely express the kind of disappointment every time I saw them around and couldn’t help myself to murder it whenever I saw them lingering alone. If they come in a trail…that is too much for me to work on…so I just ignore it with the very best effort I can…like everyone else living in the same household.

Then, it came to a point someone couldn’t take the trail of ants anymore and decided to give them a group murder with “Sheltox Spray”. As I saw the trail of ants death and still on the toilet wall, I am quite please with the murder (oh dear ants, please forgive me…we just can’t live together and you came to the wrong house). However, I think got happy too quickly to find out after many days (like 3 days), the death ants were still there and nobody bother to clean them up as if waiting for the death to burry themselves.

I came to a point wondering should I be cleaning it or if I can ask the helper to clean it? Do I have the right to even demand since the owner do not even bother? I tried talking to the helper and she sound like as if is ok. I gently ask if she could clean it when she’s free because I simply couldn’t take it anymore. I don’t know what the result of this conversation will be but I think if I still see it on the wall after a few days…I will clean on my own.

If you think…having ants is nothing…but if I tell you…how about several big flying cockroach, lizard, Aides mosquitos, bugs, bee and some unknown insects all lingering and living in one roof with you? Will you still think the same?

If you are a person who’s afraid of insect…this is a no no place for you! As for me, I am simply speechless. This is a no no place for children!

Yeah!!! The ABC Sambal source from Indonesia is finally here in Malaysia!

I was doing my grocery shopping and as I pass by the rack displaying all the sources, to my surprise…I found this red hot bottle standing tall above the shelf. Frankly, I am not a chili sambal person…but this ABC sambal just taste so good going with deep fried eggs, fried rice and noodles. So, after I been introduce to it once by a friend of mine, and later reaffirm by my brother-in-law, I began to wonder why they don’t sell this fantastic chili sambal in Malaysia? Isn’t Malaysia a good market for these type of product?

Then, I heard that ABC brand was taken over by Heinz and they begins to sell the lite soy source and sweet black soy source in Malaysia. Since then, the black ABC black soy source become my favorite in cooking fried rice, fried noodle, and ayam masak kicap (Black Source Chicken). It remind me of those tasty fried rice JP and I had during our honeymoon in Bali. Eating it simply bring back those sweet sweet memory. ^_~

Now, when I found this sambal on the shelf…I didn’t wait a second to take it home to find out if it taste the same like the one I have from Indonesia. And thank God….it surely taste the same, although it was call “Sambal Extra Pedas” / “Extra Hot Chili Source” instead of “Sambal” from the Indonesia packaging. But the HOT-NESS is the same. ^_~

So, if you were the chili sambal kinda person…do give it a try. It can be found in Survey, KK. It is lovely and HOT!

If you know me well enough, I enjoy my solitude and prefer white above all others colour. However, as I am dreaming about the place for my little girl, I can’t help to fill in colours into her world. I think, she shouldn’t be limited by my choice, but rather….be expose to all other possibility which fascinate her. Frankly, I am yet to do much for her room, mainly due to all the rules and customs belief that a pregnant women shouldn’t be painting the wall, nailing the nail, fixing the wood and etc. Well, if you are from the Eastern side of the world, you would understand those do’s and don’s asian is practicing in our culture. I am not particular about it, but I just couldn’t take the chance. So, here I am, just looking and day dreaming all the time…waiting for the time I can work on things.

I have 2 plain looking mirror, which is light in weight. I been thinking what can I do with it…or maybe where can I use it. After a long thought, I decided to place them in my little girl room and planning to add some design to it. I couldn’t deny I am quite selective and choosy over the colour, the form and the look for my child. Somehow, it still display a certain part of me. I fancy a gentle touch of clean, sweet, pastel colour vintage look for my girl.

So, here you go…I created 2 colourful scene for my girl. I plan to paint the frame of the mirror with soft baby blue and use a white marker, handwritten some beuatiful poem for my little girl on the mirror it self as the background. Placing a brown colour thread running from left to right, sticking firmly to both side of the frame. Then, have the birds and butterfly printed out and cut according to its shape (this looks quite difficult due to the small details). Last but no least, stick them accordingly on the mirror along those thread to created the illusion as if they are standing on those thin string.

I will show you how it looks when I have them done later. So now…this is the spoiler for you! Hope you like it too.

If I were to have it printed fully…it would look more or less like this. Yet, I think they just looks too plain…lacking of that depth of field. So, I will prefer it to be the combination of craft and print. What do you think?

If I am hardworking (which I doubt cause it would take too much time)…I would even consider sewing the cutout fabric on those shape. The result will look even more vintage and attractive. But, only if I have the luxury of time… ^_~

Every 2 weeks when JP drop by, it is like heaven open and drops of joy fall upon my heart. I would request JP to buy me something nice, and a casual walk in the  beach or the park, hand in hand…filling in the blank of life and comfort we required from one another. Indeed, it is a challenging time to be away from each another for so long. Yet, the union often bring so much joy and we look forward anxiously for the arrival of the day.

Last week in particular was memorable due to many good news and wonderful time together. I can still remember the smile on JP’s face, and the love song he dedicated for me. All these make me believe it is all worth it.

Sweet Indulgence with a piece of Chocolate Brownie, warm camomile and the sweet smile on your face

I came to realize one fact… one will never know how far we have gone unless you have the whole picture, or totally out of the picture.

“I believe the nicest and sweetest days are not those on which anything very splendid or wonderful or exciting happens, but just those that bring simple little pleasures, following one another softly, like pearls slipping off a string.”

“You may tire of reality but you never tire of dreams.”

“There is such a place as fairyland – but only children can find the way to it. And they do not know that it is fairyland until they have grown so old that they forget the way. One bitter day, when they seek it and cannot find it, they realize what they have lost; and that is the tragedy of life. On that day the gates of Eden are shut behind them and the age of gold is over. Henceforth they must dwell in the common light of common day. Only a few, who remain children at heart, can ever find that fair, lost path again; and blessed are they above mortals. They, and only they, can bring us tidings from that dear country where we once sojourned and from which we must evermore be exiles. The world calls them its singers and poets and artists and story-tellers; but they are just people who have never forgotten the way to fairyland.”

words from ― L.M. Montgomery

What is your version of fairyland? Mine is in the pure love & joy of human heart

I love the words from the author above. It is so true that many of us gave up that purity in our life in pursue of the happiness in the world we can never be satisfy, or even justify. We becoming so obsess with things, of what we have and don’t comparing with others as if owning it or having more compare with others making us more superior and happier than others. I never realize the blessing surrounded us until we finally out of that blessing.

From time to time…we walk pass a display window of a shop, in a movie, or an image… our memory took us back to the day, the beginning, the original person we used to be. A slight hint in our blurry memory, hidden a simply joy and a wonderful world we used to be, yet many of us can no longer find how to go back to it. So, the shortcut is often getting it ready made off the shelves, hoping to retain a slightness of that same joy, or even blaming others for not sharing, not giving and some even acusing others from taking it away from them. Still, all these will never ease the thirst, never…

I found that…these people chosen to live their life that way, yet blaming the world not giving them what they deserved. They felt oppressed but chose to be oppress, meanwhile…looking for ways and chances to oppress others whenever there’s a chance. While oppressing others, they constantly watching over their back and standing on their toe looking for more wrong and more oppression, and justification of their doing, as if by doing more will make them even more happy. But, it is in vain!

It is a whole new world, whole new culture I am experiencing. Never I thought human would chose such a path, but it does exists, as if that is the only way, or no way.

At the beginning, I care too much, and it almost killed me. I lost my inner peace and joy. I couldn’t explain how depressing I am. Maybe you should say…they succeeded in oppressing me in their master plan too. But at the end, I learn a lesson, to not care. I am not talking about care less, but NOT CARE. My eyes focus on getting what I need to get done and get my way out of it whether they LIKE IT OR NOT. Most importantly, carefully not sinking into their master plan to oppress others and being the victim for them.

I prayed for them, and hope life will treat them well. I hope, somehow… they will find their happiness, their fairyland too… getting out of this selfish life, and selfish thought. Because, we came to this world empty handed, same it will be when we leave.

Everyone deserve to be happy.

You will say: You mean nobody buy/ use chalkboard paint in Malaysia?
I’ll say: Yeah…there are some demand for the chalkboard paint, but not many sell it in the variation of colour or choice I would want it Maybe DIY is not a Malaysian kinda thing?

However, thank God for Marta Steward…we can make our own, here’s the link. And, it looks pretty possible, don’t you think??

I am fascinated by the idea of being able to paint a big nice space for my little one to explore her creativity.

Why do I have this plan? Well, because I draw a lot when I am young. Basically, I enjoy drawing on the cupboard, the wall, the door and any possible empty space I can find in the little doom I grow up. What do I paint with? Colour pencil, magic pen of course. ^_~ Whaaaaaaaaaat! Yes, my mother almost killed me. >.<” However, I think it is since then I learn about freehand drawing and so confidence with my stroke whenever I need to paint or draw on any surface. I believe it is my years of practice that count.

So, I more or less explain what I do during my childhood without fancy toys like kids today. That would be the same thing I would love my child to indulge in create imagery from her untamed mind, what she see in this new world she’s living in.

Well, I know this is way too far to plan…yet, this is a joy of a mother for being able to provide space and captivate good environment for children to explore…so drawing on the wall is not a wrong things to do.

I am thinking to give her a few circle…as she grow taller, she can reach higher and draw more. ^_~

Picture taken from Preval’s blog title “Why Should Walls get all drawing Fun“

So, other then the time I need to be cooking, frequent health check up, buying some grocery, frequent nap time and walking at the neighborhood enjoy for some breeze walking…I am more or less sitting before the Macbook air reading, reading and reading with my favorite music playing from my ipod.

Surely…
I miss my gym – the hypersexy Bodyjam, the supercool Bodycombat, and the well balance Bodybalance. I stop thinking how many release I miss since I left….but God know how much I miss it…oh dear…

Definitely…
I miss my own home, a simple kitchen where I can cook, bake and most importantly preparing lovely sunny side egg for breakfast over the weekend. My comfy bed where I often linger around, and my lovely couch where I enjoy my reading and music…O, how I wish I don’t have to go…..

Most importantly…
I miss JP, my family and all my dear friend who always love me and stay by my side. Although I am long distance away, they never stop giving me all the care and blessing whenever I need them… the encouragement I need to persevere till the end. It is never easy…for me and for them, but it is a choice I make and they respected and supported my decision.

Above all and all…
I am looking forward for my lit one and happy she is doing well together with me although we are out from our comfort zone.

Anyway…here’s a glimpse of my wishful thought while I am away…

Cooking & Baking : I like to cook some delicious food and dessert for JP and all my love ones. So, I been collecting some simple and easy to made recipe. They include Prince William fav. Chocolate Cookies Cake, Custard Apple Pear Pie, Turkey Pot Pie and Roasted Stuffing Pork. They looks simply tasty and easy to make. So, I truly look forward to give them a try when I am home. I share the thought with JP and we both look forward for the great reunion time again.

[Prince William fav. Chocolate Cookies Cake]

Something JP love even by the glance of it!

Art & Craft: By now…you should know…I had my eyes for pretty things. I just can’t resist it…not buying it, more like making them or makeover of old unless things to something pretty. Although I may have the time now, but I don’t have the material, the resources as well as the right environment for me to work on it. Yet, I been meditating what will I do when I am home with all my tools and materials…something sweet and pretty to decorate my little one room. O…I truly look forward for it.

[The paper Inspiration] 

Paper Daisy

All these wishful ideas and photos taken from Grace “Sense and Simplicity” blog. I am truly inspired by her wonderful sharing ^_~ Thanks, Grace!

Remark: I don’t often post with other people material…but since I am under resources, but couldn’t wait to share the joy with you…I hope you will like it too yeah. Meanwhile, I do think is a good idea to visit these wonderful blogger site who always so sincere and kind with their sharing. You will surely be inspired like me too!

Twilight  | by Mary Chapin Carpenter

The sun’s going down past the pines
Shadows grow long down the hill
Follow the path known by heart
Down to the wide open fields

Now that it’s twilight, twilight
Now that it’s twilight, twilight

The morning mist burned off by noon
The dogs never moved from the shade
The mountains were bluer than blue
But the best of the day has been saved

You and me, you and me, you and me
You and me, you and me, you and me …

Now we’ll be led by eventide’s hand
‘Til then we’ll walk through the gloaming
Back on up the hill once again
Done with another day’s roaming

Now that it’s twilight, twilight
Magical twilight, twilight
………………………………………………………

A letter to my little one,

We will be moving to a new place for a while
just you and me, just you and me…

But, coming with us are blessings and love
all for you and me, all for you and me…

So, let us pack up our luggage and go on the journey
cause God is with us, God is with us…

………………………………………………………

My dear readers,

I hope you love this song as I do. I will be away for a long period of time.

So, till I am able to write and share again…take care!

All I am able, thank God I am still able to revisit the place, stepping on that broken wooden stair that can barely carry my weight with my little one in me, to see it with my own eyes for the one last time, the place I spend my childhood.

I wish I can keep that antique power switch, the rounded ceiling fan, and heavy metal door handle, the black solid wooden cupboard or any thing that is possible for me take home with me… so the river of time won’t erase it from my memory…

But, they are too much, too bulky for me to own any…

So, all I have were merely photos for my memory. At least, I can tell my little one, mummy took you here before…in the extend of endanger the 2 of us, on that broken balcony.

Goodbye, 558! I will miss you always!

I have been dreaming about painting again. It is a dream I gave up for almost a 15 years. But, God is good to me. After all and all, I am so inspired to draw again. A desire which surpass all the other interest and dream…just to be able to hold that paint brush and draw again.

During my younger day…drawing were merely an expression of the lust for colour, shape and composition. Today, drawing becoming an intention and a platform to deliver a message. The colour, the shape and composition becoming the technique of delivering the message.

Surely you must know…I am grateful that both my hands were able to listen to my head and steadily do what I needed them to do. I am grateful for this gift…to the One above who bless me.

So, as I put my hands down to draw again…it have to be my admiration to Him, the One and Only God who love me just the way I am. It also mark the beginning of sharing about my journey after becoming a Christian 7 years ago.

All that I learned, I experienced,  I wish to share it with you through my painting.

So here you have the first painting …”Assurance of Spring”.
For more information about the painting, do find out more from here.

I also wanted to dedicate this painting to a very dear Ps Chandran & Jennifer. Thank you for sharing your life with us. During this season of difficulties, I like to return the same verses you once share with me. May God be your strength!

Yet,  11 March’2011 bring another furious storm. How can one fathom why it have to happen…who is at fault and what need to be done. All of the sudden, everyone setting their eyes on Japan. It brings tears to my eyes… many has lost their life, their love ones, their home, their business, their career and their future. The future they spend years of hard work to build. Indeed, Japan is a country filled with amazing people, who spend their life working on what they believe. And, till today…even after such cruel storm, they are still doing their very best to live with dignity and great determination.

I cry for God’s mercy for people in Japan…for the land of rising sun. I pray that God will restore the land and the people…bringing them new life, new hope and new future.

Eph 2:3-5 (NIV) …Like the rest, we were by nature objects of wrath. But because of his great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy, made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in transgressions–it is by grace you have been saved.

I am working on a painting…title “Assurance of Spring“

Photo taken by “Andor Szathmari”

The last few grey sheets still stirring
Far beyond what your hand can restore

The storm swipe away castle of comfort
Scrip to basic like bloom is never before

Hearts crying how long the winter will stay
Minds wondering how much more you can take

Then, you’ll be like the snowdrop flower
Humble in your posture yet courages

Then, you’ll break through that thick snow
Spreading your bud and rise again

Then, you’ll declare to the world your new life
Because God will be your strength

The old has gone and new will surely come
Because God mercy will calm the storm

In new life you found hope like living stream
And you will never be thirsty again

By Imeau March 21, 2011

Also, I like to dedicated this to those who’s hurt. Please always remember, no matter how cold the winter may be… how long it may takes, the spring will surely return…

JP love it. So….huuuuuhhh…at least I do justice to those apples. ^_~

Usually…I just mix whatever I have with a quick magic…serve all in one nice plate and place it in front of my workstation. My eyes are busy reading…my brain continue processing data and making decision…with my mouth taking in the food with many many breaks in between.

Yes, I ain’t rushing to finish my food ^_~

This take about 15 min of cook time. Quite reasonable for lunch meal don’t you think?

This is like 5 min salty oat with some means pork serve with black sesame…it wasn’t that fantastic actually…but who cares

I am meeting a client and his colleague are having nissin noodle as their lunch – cooking in office with luncheon meat, eggs and vege. So, I couldn’t help it to desire for the same thing…but I use ham instead. ^_~

This surely take time to cook, but the chicken potato and rice is merely left over from previous dinner. I merely warm them and add on some green pea for some green. Is all about the way you serve that makes the different…do you agree?

Overall…the aim for my work lunch is something nice, healthy but real quick so I can have more time working on things…. Indeed, it is very different to work for self than work for others. I am having quite a different life, I won’t say is easier, but definitely worth while. ^_~

Breakfast…

Lunch…

Tea…

Dinner…

The luxury of being a “housewife”, taking a break from professional work…oh so glorious! ^_~