3 Dedications

Sometime a message is easier to deliver through writing…especially, when the message is hard to communicate in person. So, if a message is written under the category of dedication and the target appears as anonymous, it is actually “someone” who has a place in my heart.

Always, I hope “someone” would read it and catch the meaning of the writing, or at least find the reading applicable to part of his/her life.

If you nodded with the message, then…the message is dedicated to you.

1st Dedication: Distance

I know you are not far from me. But, I felt you are million miles away from me. I can no longer understand that glimpse of your eyes, smile on your face, words that you write and heartbeat of your life. Yet, I think (I hope) life is good to you…more than what I can see and what I read. I hope this life you are having is like a dream come true, although there are no longer a place for me. Yet, I am happy for you and always keep you in my prayer.

2nd Dedication: Favorite

Have favor on me, I asked. I am a little cold, I little ignorance and I little “into my own world” but you know I have a warm beating heart. I am more than a “title” you used to call me. You can call me by my name when you see me and I will definitely reply you with a BIG smile because you are special to me.

3rd Dedication: Personhood

Male

I am shocked to know you broke off with her, yet the reason doesn’t surprises me. I guess, knowing your kind of character (not that I know you a lot)…this is unavoidable. I hope you are not blaming yourself for the incident, instead…began to understand what you really want in life. Sometime, it is when you know what you want and living it out, you will be able to attract the right girls into your life, which will be comfortable with the way you are. She will be able to compliment you in everything that you do, because she is just another you.

Female

Girl…I am glad you took the step. I know it is not an easy one but you made it. There are many twist and turn in life which is unavoidable, but it has strengthen you and made you a more attractive women. The journey of your womanhood has just began and be sure to add a few more splash of colour, living the best out of your life. You know God is faithful, and He will surely bless you.

Sign-off with love

Harvesting what you sow

Harvesting what you sow

“In every forest, on every farm, in every orchard on earth, it’s what’s under the ground that creates what’s above the ground. That’s why placing your attention on the fruits that you have already grown is futile. You cannot change the fruits that are already hanging on the tree. You can, however, change tomorrow’s fruits. But to do so, you will have to dig below the ground and strengthen the roots.”
- T. Harv Eker

The quote above is specially significant in this world wide economy downtime. It is time like this, you would really question your own strength and knowledge. What would you do if you were one of the victim in this down time? What can you do to earn a living? It is surely time to dig in to the root and change one perspective and attitude toward works and life.

You should truly praise God is you still earning your monthly salary and should truly stop complaining about what the company didn’t offer you – because truly now, it is the employer market. They will only choose those who can perform, those with good character and LOW COST (if possible).

I truly sad for those “LEGENDARY” skilled people, who is so highly paid, high profile becoming the crisis victim. I won’t think they deserve to be treated that way, as they are the pioneer that ignite our passion and uncovered our talent. However, it is just…sadly to say…time was really bad. It is time like this, all the sentimental value go straight down to the drain, and survivor nature shoot right to the surface.

Eventually, I truly hope…for those LEGENDARY skilled people, not to give up and stop complaining because complaining won’t bring you any further. It is like the wheat and weed grow together in the same field. The weed will stand tall and proud, but the wheat will humble his head because he is filled with knowledge and power. Eventually, during the harvest time, those without will be first to be cut away and thrown into fire.

Beside, if you think you are wheat, it is fine to bend (be flexible) as winner are those filled with knowledge and power, yet flexible to evolve and change, not those hard-headed insisting of standing tall and proud even though the burden is heavy, and the wind are strong.

I truly hope to see them on the stage once again, shining like the LEGENDARY Star I remembered.

Because you love me

I am going around making a few splash of ink…yet the colour just fade away. I stop adding the blending liquid but dry splash of paint hoping to bring out the contrast of life.

Still, everything is pastel as this is always the way I am. Yet, the feeling is extreme. You can surely find it in between of the light and shadow.

I am who I am because you love me…

Red Belongs to Winter

Truly, is freezing cold here…but I am fine. God given auto-body heater in me is in its tip top condition. So, most of the time…snow or rain, I feel good.

2 February 2009 (Monday) – the whole London stood still due to the heaviest snow storm in the past 18 years. Most were worried about me (thanks for praying for me)…but actually…I travel from Frankfurt to London when the condition is slightly better. However, I still got stuck in the airport for 5 hours and inside the plane for another 2 hours. Most of the time, we just sit and wait for someone to tell us when our aircraft is ready for boarding, when runway is ready for landing, and last…when is our turn to leave the aircraft and go into the terminal. It is truly exhausting experience.

However, in the other hand, I felt blessed. I never see or touches the real “snow” before (the one I had in the ski resort are man made). So, despite of the exhausting wait, I look forward for the snow…to see it fall from the sky, and land on my face.

Anyway, I am not going to write anymore…I just  love London.

In London, red belongs to winter. Enjoy!

£3 Billion cost of shambles in the snow

Spring Fair – This is an animated Gorilla (suitable for Halloween ^_~)

Squirrel are very much a shy animal…but not this two.

Making snowman with bare hand…my hands turned red

My first love…and I left him

Hyre Park – resting

This is London…more beautiful than what I imagine. Would you agree with me?

Wondering in Dreamland

Do you ever encounter situation where you don’t know what you are doing but when you notice, you miss a turn and oversight on some basic thing. You feel worst if you make the same mistake more than once.

I am probably in the dreamland for the past one week. I couldn’t count how many mistakes I make but it is simply unbelievable.

Here is one good example…

One day…as I am driving to work. I need to make an right turn toward Pencala Link to office. Instead, I make a left turn. When I notice, I am already at the end of the junction. I couldn’t take that route because is usually very “jam” on the weekday. I decided to take a U-Turn and go back to where I begin and turn to the route I suppose to take.

As I do that, the next thing I notice, I am already at the end of the junction. I am again, at the wrong side of the road. It was a “O My God! What happened to me?”. I almost felt like slapping myself and say…”Hey girl, wake up!”

I have no choice but to make another U-Turn and I tell myself I must turn right. I actually shouting out loud in my car…”Turn right, turn right, turn right….”

Finally I get to my office 20 min late. Don’t ask me what happened because I have no idea. When I doing the left turn, I have no clue where is my “mind”.

Same thing as this happened in other area and trust me, I am very frustrated with it. Yet, I thank God the busy period is over. Now is just settle down and start to chillax* a little. So, let me be blur so long I hurt no one, let me dream, let me fly away to a far far away land…let the bell jingle all the way toward Christmas…

Disclaimer: No one (any living things or non living things) is hurt during my dreamy car drive.
New Vocabulary: Chillax is a new word introduce since the YACamp 2008. It means, chill & relax.
Remark: This picture above is titled “Dreaming of Christmas”. Hope you like it.

Merry Christmas & Happy New Year! Cheers ^_~